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The Topic of the Day is: Tuesday, October 25, 2005 | |
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Ugh... what a long dreadful day. And yet now I'm happy that it's near to being done. I didn't finish physics homework; I got half answers on pretty much everything. I went through half the problem, got stuck, and stopped. I didn't finish math homework; I got answers for all but four problems and some of those answers I know are not right but I didn't have the time or the motivation to go back and fix them. So I turned it in as is, knowing full well that I get 5-6 (out of 40 or so points) off when I turn in sets that I consider fully completed and correct. FUUUUUUUUUUCK. I hate homework, and I hate my own inadequacies. Why can't I seem to do anything fully or correctly? When did I lose who I was--that person who was intelligent, who knew what they were doing and got straight As? And why for the LOVE of all GODS am I still a physics major if it makes me this depressed? I love my job. I love the theories. I just don't seem capable of being motivated about this shit. and that frustrates me beyond comprehension. I hate homework not because it's hard but because I don't finish it--I hate myself and how disappointing I am. And no one else cares and no one else gives a damn because the people who do what I do DON'T care about anything and the people who care like I do DO things instead of ignoring them. I have an African Storytelling test this Friday. I should summarize and resummarize the stories and the novels, and work on a copy of the essay I plan on writing (both men go through rites of passage that fail because their idealized views of their future (society's future) of something are unrealistic). I should fix my spanish essay; work on my spanish presentation; read the article for URS; do the spanish take home test; study spanish, study physics, start math homework... I want to watch movies and smile and take a break and laugh; but maybe I do that too much. Is it all worth it? Somedays... I don't think so. |
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***Tbook1 (Time and Chaos, needs a new name, needs to be edited) ***Book of Sun (Just needs to be edited. Tis a Nano novel) ***Book of Whispers part 1 (Does not jive at all with part 2; needs to be rewritten to fit and to have less suckage) ***Book of Whispers part 2 (Needs some rehaul editing, needs some loose ends tied up, needs to fit) ***Book of Whispers part 3 (Needs to be finished... then needs to die o.o Not sure if I need a third part in the series) ***Dium's Story (Needs a point, progress, anything... needs to be integrated into Tbook1, since that is what it is a part of, mainly) ***Trio Story with Jackie and Louise (Maybe we should get together and work on this, guys) ***Demon Story (This is working out pretty good so far. I like the plot, it's a bit convoluted, and the characters are interesting) ***New Witch Story (It's only 30 pages long, dang) ***Dragon's Voices (This has SO much potential! wee!) | |
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2 Comments:
oh, Lady, it's worth it. You're a tough lass, but nobody is requiring perfection from you. Existential angst can be good but maybe not so much during midterms :)
Peace! Breathe! Step back! Smile!
Just remember that there's worthwhile stuff at the end of it. No matter what you do there's going to be tough stuff involved but you're more than capable of overcoming it!
It'll be ok! Just try to remember the good stuff at the end of it. :)
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