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The Topic of the Day is: Tuesday, July 04, 2006 | |
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Mood: blahdeeblah, no one understands me, blahdeeblah :P What's the point in it all, I wonder? All these normal people frighten me.... It's like that which might make them nerdy is so casual that it has no effect on their personalities. Maybe it's supposed to be that way, but it makes them... so... so damn trivial, brutal, cruel, whiny, confrontational,, sexually driven... they have no depth (that they show), and they want none of mine. But so much of me is depth. *snicker* all right, at least I think that what I give on the surface has little relevance to the internal me, all my conflicts, my problems, my questions, my confusions with life and my purpose. And my justification. Is there a way to be realistically optimistic in life? I cannot live with being realistically pessimistic. And I can no longer embrace naive optimism, which was my little comfort blanket against the world. I know things now that I could not have dreamed three years ago--things about myself, about other people, about the whole fucking fucked up world. I can't give that up, but I can't take all of the world's horror and just grimace in the face of it. I have to have my reasons to smile. Trivial little reasons like life and the wind on my face but they must be there. And the belief that some magic remains in the world. I can't deny it! so much exists that is horrible and evil and yet in the face of it all, some vague hope remains, in the pallid clouds and the dark horizon. I can't help but find it--my moment of peace and quiet joy in the very sense of existence. Is there such a thing as realistic optimism? Who knows. But these people who flee.... everything about life, in movies and people and trivial events, these stupid little STORIES about past happenings, just petty occurence after petty occurence.... it drives me insane I'm really lonely right now and I just want to go home. All around me are familiar faces Worn out places, Worn out faces Bright and early for the daily races Going nowhere, Going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression, No expression Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow No tomorrow, No tomorrow And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad These dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take When people run in circles it's a very very... Mad World, Mad World Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday And they feel the way that every child should Sit and listen, Sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me, No one knew me Hello teacher tell me whats my lesson Look right through me, Look right through me And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad These dreams in which I'm dying, Are the best I've ever had I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take When people run in circles it's a very very... Mad World, Mad World Enlargen your world Mad World |
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***Tbook1 (Time and Chaos, needs a new name, needs to be edited) ***Book of Sun (Just needs to be edited. Tis a Nano novel) ***Book of Whispers part 1 (Does not jive at all with part 2; needs to be rewritten to fit and to have less suckage) ***Book of Whispers part 2 (Needs some rehaul editing, needs some loose ends tied up, needs to fit) ***Book of Whispers part 3 (Needs to be finished... then needs to die o.o Not sure if I need a third part in the series) ***Dium's Story (Needs a point, progress, anything... needs to be integrated into Tbook1, since that is what it is a part of, mainly) ***Trio Story with Jackie and Louise (Maybe we should get together and work on this, guys) ***Demon Story (This is working out pretty good so far. I like the plot, it's a bit convoluted, and the characters are interesting) ***New Witch Story (It's only 30 pages long, dang) ***Dragon's Voices (This has SO much potential! wee!) | |
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As long as you continue to think you are better than everyone else, you will be. **Love ya!!**
~Jessi
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