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The Topic of the Day is: Friday, November 10, 2006 | |
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This is going to sound silly and trite, but the hell with it. It's my frickin blog. I think I've spread myself to fucking thin. Which is silly! I only took 4 classes. And the library job and the tutoring job and the laboratory job, and this typing job, and nano and ballroom dancing and scifi club and the fact that I procrastinate at least 24 hours a week. And, oh yeah, that whole wanting to get, you know, decent grades and all that. This is, quite honestly, depressing me. I can't get work done because I'm too daunted by it because it piles up because I don't get any of it done. I want to apply for scholarships but every time I look at them I just crumble. I wish there was a way to tackle everything in little bits. There is, you moron. It's called studying for a bit and then getting up and moving around, not reading webcomics until all hours and watching anime and chatting on AIM in distraction every 30 seconds I wish there was a way to do it *now*, when I'm so goddamned behind. Everything truly, truly sucks. Bob canceled our hanging out/ semi-date time on Friday (I forget why). This lit paper fails on so many levels. When I finally get a topic that I understand and can almost trace, I can't prove it and it's too long of an idea anyway. I spent too much money on groceries and I eat too much and don't exercise enough and my hair is getting too long again and the purple is fading. Stefanie complains when I don't hang out with her and I feel bad for not doing it because I only ever procrastinate instead of studying like I say I do, like I TRY to do. But if I hung out with her instead of being at home trying to do my homework, I would just feel bad the whole time! I won't be able to take my poetry class next semester because I need the women's studies one and it's not offered a lot and it takes up more time anyway. I wish I had a boyfriend or someone who gave a rat's ass, and the post office was closed so I couldn't mail my package. And it's cold, my hiking boots for winter are heavy and make my calves ache. Kaylee keeps trying to eat my shirt, my mom is controlling, my dad is controlling, everyone in my family lives in a sucky situation that could imminently get much worse. The stupid marriage ban passed even though it's freggin stupid and inane, I miss my friends from Minnesota and from Wisconsin, and I don't have television so I can't see the Packers game this Sunday even though I don't have the time. I keep blowing off Louise too because I'm too busy and it's not fair. And I haven't had the chance to clean my apartment in a while and that frustrates me. I cried in front of my astro prof while trying to get homework help and it was very embarrassing. I don't work at the lab enough and I'm behind in studying for african and lit and math and astro, and I kind've want to quit PMT but it's so good for me to relearn Physics. I want to join the Undergraduate Science Journal and see if I like science writing after all but I don't have time. I'm behind in Nano and the story depresses me and I can't seem to write any more and nothing I write has any depth to it. On the plus side, I've been able to talk to Susan a bit in physics about all of my various stresses, which helps. Maybe I'll skip class on Monday to write my lit paper. Skip class all day! that sounds nice. Except I have to tutor. Oh well, I could stay in until 2. Maybe I would get something done. I know it's only Saturday but Sunday was supposed to be studying math until my ears fell off. I don't want another BC on this coming Math test. |
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***Tbook1 (Time and Chaos, needs a new name, needs to be edited) ***Book of Sun (Just needs to be edited. Tis a Nano novel) ***Book of Whispers part 1 (Does not jive at all with part 2; needs to be rewritten to fit and to have less suckage) ***Book of Whispers part 2 (Needs some rehaul editing, needs some loose ends tied up, needs to fit) ***Book of Whispers part 3 (Needs to be finished... then needs to die o.o Not sure if I need a third part in the series) ***Dium's Story (Needs a point, progress, anything... needs to be integrated into Tbook1, since that is what it is a part of, mainly) ***Trio Story with Jackie and Louise (Maybe we should get together and work on this, guys) ***Demon Story (This is working out pretty good so far. I like the plot, it's a bit convoluted, and the characters are interesting) ***New Witch Story (It's only 30 pages long, dang) ***Dragon's Voices (This has SO much potential! wee!) | |
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1 Comments:
It'll get better!
And you don't blow me off, I know you're busy. We'll find a time to hang out, and it will be awesome! Until then, it'll be something cool to look forward to. I miss being able to hang out, but that's not your fault, we're both busy, though you're more busy than me. And it's more school's fault than anything. :) And we'll have a day of hanging out sooner or later!
And you do a lot of stuff, way more than I could ever try to do at once, it's impressive how much you do.
So it's ok to be upset or stressed out by it, because it is a lot to do. It'll turn out ok though, and when it's done, there will be time to just take a break and do something fun.
I don't know if there's anything I can do to be helpful...but if there is, let me know, and I'll try to help!
For now good luck with everything!! I'm sure you'll do fine, you're awesome. :)
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