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The Topic of the Day is: Friday, July 20, 2007 | |
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Spent today so far procrastinating horribly and also doing some permissions things for Geek.kon. What a hassle. It takes so much time just to hunker down and do these infinitesimal things that I want to go crazy. Apparently, however, it's preferable to writing The Paper. Speaking of not writing The Paper, I wrote some fanfic last night! it's my first, and it's probably not very good, but at least I don't have to worry about it being worse than the HORRIBLE novelization of Serenity I read. That's actually what motivated me to write it. I got Keith DeCandido's Serenity novelization from Bookmooch and it basically describes the movie. You get almost NOTHING on top of that. Occasionally he'll go on a tangent and give a paragraph summary of an episode and try to incorporate that. That man has the worst case of "tell not show" that I've ever seen in a writer before, and that is saying something! I get no emotions, no description, nothing real. and he's published. all official looking novelization and such. *shakes head* I think if I write enough of these firefly/serenity fanfics I'll edit them and try to get them published. if this DeCandido is any proof, I should have an easy time of it. ah, the enthusiasm of the beginning of a project. You know you never stay with them. What happened to the Angry Feminist blog you were going to start? and all your short stories, and all your half finished novels, and all your recursively edited novels... nothing's ever been finished shut UP. Maybe I won't get my fanfic published by the novels'll be published some day. I like the new short story, Dragon Voices. It's doing much better; it has good characters; and it won't be more than 50 pages (I hope). It has a chance. maybe an anthology of some sort. well the Writing Critique Group is a fair bit helpful. But won't this simply distract from your studies? I thought you said this was the year you were going to crack down. It's always the year you're going to crack down. Why don't you ever focus on something? Too many interesting things going on to focus on one thing. This year WILL be a good year at school. I will be motivated. I will start my homework early. I'll read and study an hour a night per topic. Just an hour! it can't be that bad and I can do it! an hour won't be enough, not for quantum mechanics Then I'll spend more time on it. Two hours a night studying, and four hours per day on the weekend. probably just get distracted by shiny manga and anime again. You don't want to have to think. Just sit back and lose yourself in another world. Don't have to face who you are, what you accomplish (nothing) what you look like (you already failed your exercise regime for the week) how you justify your inactivity-- I was going to get angry. But I don't care. Sure, you're the expression of my inner self doubts. But I get into research programs, and I present at tons of conferences, and I get higher than a B average, and I have a professional network and a social network. So I'm succeeding... even though I'm outside the normal parameters of succeeding. I won't be a genius who is worldknown for physics if I don't focus; but I will be a worker who achieves some things and still has time for herself. And I have always been a follower, not a leader, because I get awkward when there's the possibility of me being someone's superior; maybe it makes me nervous, maybe it makes me too happy, but I really suck at it. I adopt a swagger (ugh, am I trying to make myself masculine whenever I'm in charge? well the alternative is being feminine... neither of which is how I want to be seen...)... and that swagger is not me. I'm a blend of everything. I don't fit into categories; I'm not a femme, and I'm not a butch, and I'm not emo and I'm not prep. The point is, I don't have to fit into all their definitions of what is success in physics. Perfect grades, no other thought besides physics--that's not me. Physics is one pillar out of several that hold me up; none alone could do it. It's all necessary, but none of it is sufficient. DO YOU UNDERSTAND? ... ... yes. Then shut up. |
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Stories I'm currently working on. | |
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***Tbook1 (Time and Chaos, needs a new name, needs to be edited) ***Book of Sun (Just needs to be edited. Tis a Nano novel) ***Book of Whispers part 1 (Does not jive at all with part 2; needs to be rewritten to fit and to have less suckage) ***Book of Whispers part 2 (Needs some rehaul editing, needs some loose ends tied up, needs to fit) ***Book of Whispers part 3 (Needs to be finished... then needs to die o.o Not sure if I need a third part in the series) ***Dium's Story (Needs a point, progress, anything... needs to be integrated into Tbook1, since that is what it is a part of, mainly) ***Trio Story with Jackie and Louise (Maybe we should get together and work on this, guys) ***Demon Story (This is working out pretty good so far. I like the plot, it's a bit convoluted, and the characters are interesting) ***New Witch Story (It's only 30 pages long, dang) ***Dragon's Voices (This has SO much potential! wee!) | |
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I love you, and the fact that you talk to yourself :D
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