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The Topic of the Day is: Sunday, November 25, 2007 | |
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Today I looked at myself and thought, "Damn, I do look good." And I do. And I'm glad of how I look. Today is a weird day for it. I spent all week lamenting how poorly I've been doing with the whole dieting thing and struggling with the fact that I do, now, care about something like my weight (a care I've spent my whole life denying or ignoring). Anybody who thinks I don't look good isn't paying attention. Let's hope this feeling lasts. I identify a lot with an article I read in Body Outlaws, which basically talks about a girl who decided the only way she was going to get attention was by having a big mouth. I think I did that a lot myself. I speak loud, I laugh raucously, I swear and say stupid things. It's one of the ways I've found to not be ignored. Of course, nothing irritates me more than when people only listen to how I say things and not what I am saying. People are forever telling me to quiet down, to not swear, to not act so angry or be so violent. Is this ridiculous? I'm not nearly as silenced as my sister or as many other women are. But I hate being told that I'm "out of control," as if I didn't know full well what I was doing, as if I needed to be reined in. Sometimes I silence my sister. Actually I do it a lot, and I feel bad about it constantly. I don't mean the interrupting. I refer more to the ... reining in of her that I do. Do we have a responsibility to be reined in? To not be reined in is to put oneself above all other things and all other people; to say, in a way, that being oneself is important enough to intrude on other peoples' lives. On the other hand, there is something to be said for being oneself without concern for societal or social opinion and influence. One should be oneself without allowing others to change this self; but one has no right to block the ability of others to be themselves. Like most things I am always struggling with, it's a difficult balance. |
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***Tbook1 (Time and Chaos, needs a new name, needs to be edited) ***Book of Sun (Just needs to be edited. Tis a Nano novel) ***Book of Whispers part 1 (Does not jive at all with part 2; needs to be rewritten to fit and to have less suckage) ***Book of Whispers part 2 (Needs some rehaul editing, needs some loose ends tied up, needs to fit) ***Book of Whispers part 3 (Needs to be finished... then needs to die o.o Not sure if I need a third part in the series) ***Dium's Story (Needs a point, progress, anything... needs to be integrated into Tbook1, since that is what it is a part of, mainly) ***Trio Story with Jackie and Louise (Maybe we should get together and work on this, guys) ***Demon Story (This is working out pretty good so far. I like the plot, it's a bit convoluted, and the characters are interesting) ***New Witch Story (It's only 30 pages long, dang) ***Dragon's Voices (This has SO much potential! wee!) | |
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