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The Topic of the Day is: Friday, March 14, 2008 | |
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*bursts free from the surface of homework* FREEDOM! *gasp* at last! A summary of the week: QM test is over (but it went pretty bad. gaaaaaaaack. I'm kind've numb about it. Just gotta do better on all the homeworks, and that's it :P) Cosmology test is over (it went WELL. it made me feel like I knew what I was doing! It made me HAPPY! dear gods, do you know how long it's been since a test did that to me? we'll have to see how my grade goes) Fall count for the season is up to 8 (damn you snowmelt that freezes overnight and is all but invisible :P) upcoming plans are all fantastic (weeeeeeeeeeee!) Twin and I are doing great things! (weeeeeeeeeee!) Went for half an hour walk this morning (yay!) the weather is improving! JOY!!!! I begin to feel more distant from people again. Physics Club is full of people who talk and don't do homework, and whom I don't know very well and whom don't seem to want to get to know me at all. I think I might start studying at M. Library since it is peaceful and might actually help me focus. But it's strange for me to be so distant from them. It makes me sad. And SciFi club, too, is like something that happens around me, not to me. I don't know what to think. Do I need to put more effort into it? Or do other people need to put more effort in back? I miss writing group. I have sucked it up at attending and writing for it for almost 6 months now (the december story was a scant few pages of change to the story from September). I miss writing. I always seem to be putting it off. Of course I do the poetry, one piece at a time, very nice, and I enjoy it. But the story ideas in my head are fragmentary, I never pursue them, and they start to die. Is it impossible to reach a balance between the side of me that needs physics and the side of me that needs writing? Right now I'm sacrificing one for the other. Is there no life where I can have both? Is it the school effect, the "make me a better scientist" effect, the "learning to actually be good at physics, gradually" effect? I am feeling more like I am good at physics. Of course maybe it's that I got into some nice summer programs, or some remnants of what AAS did to me. But I feel more confident in my abilities. I want to do more physics: I want to go to the lab a lot more, I want to make progress and have results, and find out how interferometry works with WSTAR. But I don't want to give up writing. It feels like it's slipping away. When I try it again, it feels desperate and clingy Oh, for the love of... would you RELAX? That's only because you are out of practice at it. You can't lose it forever. If you practiced... if you actually did the 1 page a day thing (just like if you actually did the 100 situps a day) I think you would notice a lot of difference. Plus, if you did the 1 page a day thing, maybe you'd LEARN how to have time for both writing and science. Maybe you'd learn how to handle the surges of character-memory that make science so hard (popping up inconveniently). You keep running away from this problem. Time to face it never thought of that before, that I could *learn* balance. I thought that was something I had or did not have. To practice it... to perfect it... I like that. |
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Stories I'm currently working on. | |
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***Tbook1 (Time and Chaos, needs a new name, needs to be edited) ***Book of Sun (Just needs to be edited. Tis a Nano novel) ***Book of Whispers part 1 (Does not jive at all with part 2; needs to be rewritten to fit and to have less suckage) ***Book of Whispers part 2 (Needs some rehaul editing, needs some loose ends tied up, needs to fit) ***Book of Whispers part 3 (Needs to be finished... then needs to die o.o Not sure if I need a third part in the series) ***Dium's Story (Needs a point, progress, anything... needs to be integrated into Tbook1, since that is what it is a part of, mainly) ***Trio Story with Jackie and Louise (Maybe we should get together and work on this, guys) ***Demon Story (This is working out pretty good so far. I like the plot, it's a bit convoluted, and the characters are interesting) ***New Witch Story (It's only 30 pages long, dang) ***Dragon's Voices (This has SO much potential! wee!) | |
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